I dont want to be pencil lead

Saying No is never difficult for me since young, but saying Yes is a big feat for me. i am just so strange and trying hard to be different from the rest bah, watever u wan to says. Last time in tw, i oso dun wan to be groom to be higher position coz i am juz not happi with the whole company org .. i wan to leave means i wan to leave, i did not hesitate very long nor tink very long to say Yes.

now at MS, i tink i found the right company org for myself but they are pushing me to be pencil lead which i do not want to and i said no even i step on board, den i decided to still give it a try and be the pencil lead for a not very challenging team and worked for 2mths. now i decided no more pencil lead liao .. i juz want to lay low and stay low profile for the rest of my career.

there are thousands and millions of reasons why i dun wan to be a pencil lead, i flare easily, i cant control my temper and i do not like the feel of slowing down for my processors and i super dislike the feel of clearing their shits when they are in trouble n i nid to issue "warning letters" to them. super hate the pencil lead job.

i do not deny i like authority but i dislike the power that comes with it and the agonies which i heard n saw from those faces when they got into trouble with me. i jus wan to work peacefully as a normal processor. I can clear 20 logs for u per day, can clear all ur POs for u everyday but i cant face the processors when i reprimand them for sth which they did wrong and then turn around and work happily again with them. i just find it super duper hard to do that .. 1 min scold them den 1 min laugh with them .. alamak .. my emotions dont flunctuate so fast ..if i could i would be in IMH ..

haiz why do mgt say i got lead potential? why do everybody say tat? are their eyes seeing them which i have been denying myself or i am destine to fail and fall? i hate it when pple approach me asking me to go higher up in my career coz i wanted to say Yes but its so hard for me to say yes, i would rather say No coz i am so accustom to saying No.

my hubby is the opp, u wan him to say NO, its so difficult, always i am the 1 who say No to his receiving requests coz he cant help but always say Yes. he's a yes person, i am a NO person, tats why we clicked ...

haiz juz told my big big boss i dun wan to be lead when his initial intention is to promote his re-org plans again, but he had to predict this would happen someday if not now and since my big boss not in today, of coz today is the best asuspicious day and date to mention this, NO - i do not want to be Pencil Lead!

i dont know if the end result is a top-down approach decision which he will make, i dont know if he will eventually actually approve my request, but i am prepared to be transfered to another grp and listen to the commands of another pencil lead, i am prepared to juz slough my guts out over the agts and ignore that pple are juz not as hardworking as me. kept asking me, why why dont want, u are potential ..

coz my previous experience being a vice head prefect caused this. me being a vice-head, led my sec sch life in misery, made the least friends, had the least happiest memories to mention and least the most unhapi days of my life.

in jc, life picked me up, i made a bunch of very gd frds in the retained 1st yr but happier in life, was made captain of the squash club n led my team go inter-school competitions even though we had no coach of our own .. daring, u call it, but i did it. i dont even see it as a leadership position becoz i was then the convenient captain coz i was the most senior student who joined squash while the rest joined in april n i joined in jan.. so i kid myself thru the 2 yrs in jc.

manage to stick to uni after tat n laid a low life and met my bf n got married till my career path start going roller coaster ..

now the roller coaster going to start all over again mah? or i shld say i have been on the coaster since i joined ms, so nth surprising, shld i really learn to be a more YES person rather than a NO person? ..

say yes... NO.... yes la ... NO leh ... YES pls .. NO for goodness ... yes? .. NO .. byebye

Another Monthend

Dear Tigeress,

another monthend has pass and this is the 17th monthend at MS for me. Joined on 1st June 2007. i am still complaining when we are expected to order dinner on thursday. in actual fact, we are already told and given the expectation to start OT from the 1st Monday of the Monthend week, but greedy humane personality, always felt, nth to do, go home la, order dinner for wat? siao ..

when will this come to an end? i am frankly getting very tired of the changing arrangements in my company and job scope. had a change every 3months since i joined this company. Big companies more subject to changes coz revenue is all they see. if this org arrangment dun get more revenue then we revise and review again until they see more revenue. Then how do they pacify staffs like us? they sayd "ok, u can learn more new tings and gain more exposures, will help u in ur future career ladder climb.."but who cares to climb tat corp ladder..only u care and is so bothered, i am not bothered at all if i am not the team lead, i do not manage pple, junior staffs are managing senior staffs like me. . i really totally dun care.

i just wan a stable job for me to be able to start my own family, to spend time with my family. no phone calls to my mobile during wkends and wkdae nites. ot or no ot, really is quite ok as long as its not LAST MIN OT. i hate last min ot, thats the reason why i left my previous company and i really thank my good fortune i left there early. else i wont have come to MS.

i wont say my company is treating me bad, but i hope it can be better, dun implement changes every 3months time, its too much for me, not to mention the end users, no wonder there's frustration after every quarter month coz system changes, process changes.. sick.

when will all these changes be settled and come to an end? i miss the single program group. will it ever come back??

Love,
ph

My Memory - Part 1

Dear iceymemories,

welcome to my big family of diaries and the 1st digital diary i am keeping.

I am a very sentimental person since i entered Secondary School. Maybe its partly due to the fault that previously i was very self-concocious of my complex family background and complicated kinship among my family members, or maybe its due to me being more exposed to chinese pop songs and songs during my era are all sad, slow, sentimental songs.

i love chinese characters, i love chinese language but too bad my hse pc does not have chinese support, hence i am unable to blog in chinese. but very soon i am going to get a new set of OS then i can use chinese language at home too, not only in office.

i used to keep a diary and i gave names to my diaries. My 1st diary started in my primary school is called Bobdog, bcoz the cover page is Bobdog. Very famous carton char in my era..haha then my 2nd diary is a green color dairy with a locker, forget what i name it liao. this green diary was used to record my family affairs then follow by another diary which i named it "Huan Nian" (rememberance in chinese). A very romantic diary book with beautiful landscape sceanary. I wrote my sec sch stuffs in this diary.

Then in sec sch my close classmates gave me a bigger and thicker and nice frangance smelling diary which i still keep it with me and still have around half a book is unfilled. Unfilled because i met my current hubby during the diary writing process, and i started another diary just about him & me. and i kept this thicker frangance smelling diary only for the most inner secrets which i dont want to share with anybody and even him. i cant remember wat name i gave to the diary which i wrote abt him n me, but its just a normal A4 notebook. Haha coz during that era, this type of notebook is the most popular notebook which jc pple use to jot lecture notes. Not cheap man .. spent $8+ on that diary.

Nowadays i dont write diary because whenever i write in my diary, i am also writting down my unhappiness in my diary. And the more i wrote, the more unhappiness i unearth and my mind became very confused and troubled. I start to wonder if i am writing diaries to make my peaceful and happy sadder, more depressive.. am i sadist. y do i not record the happy events in my life but only remember the unhappy events. why?

now i am planning to start my own family, i wonder if i will get pre-/post-maternity blues during my preggy stage. but these are things i wont know until i am preg. so well, lets leave it as it is.

Love,
bf

no title

very sian recently, dont feel like blogging anymore.everyday at work so busy now after i become team lead.and i blog liao nobody give comments, i felt i am blogging in vain.

Hectic Qtr end finally end

Sep 2008 is the 1st time i really fully hands on in managing a team of processors to run the show for india, PH, INdo, Sri Lanka and some more its the 1st Fiscal qtr closing in the new fiscal year. When i was 1st being informed by my ex-TL that i am assigned to run the show, i was full of excitement and expectations on what will/is going to happen.

Turn up, the reality was not as bad i initially imagined. My group, though only 4 processors are skilled in all programs, they were quite tolerant to my re-assigning, and re-assigning and more assign & re-assigning. heng ah .. they were oso very co-operative and helpful, unlike the other special grp, who complain n complain and slack n slack ..bt after midnite on fri, there was a bit of hitchup coz 1 big deal was overlooked by me and 1 processor, but heng we managed to salvage the situation with guidance from the new Manager on board. Stayed till 330am in the office and next day (sat) woke at 10am+ den went JB...

bought a new specs for my hubby, he got new haircut n i got 3 pairs of new ear-rings and 2 stomach full of HK foodies and seafood home ..oh ya and 3 new blue big dices. . haha

den sun sleep till 9am den woke up by FIL to go eat bfast .. was dozing on the car on the way there n back hm .. den finally climb to my bed n zzz again till 2pm den woke up coz hungry again . .. den went to MIL hse eat lunch den pplayed chinese chess half way den went to sign up for viwawa n played viwawa with my hub n SIL .. haha so fun .. den 4pm+ play real mj with my BIL .. den lost $30+ .. wow .. gunner for the day ..

den 1030pm went to bed again .. den this morning almost oversleep again .. den drag myself to work again ..

wed faster come ok ...

So tiring

juz finish meeting my cousins on sat for lunch .. den celebrating my mum bdae on sunday, no time to post the photos up anywhere yet den next wkend is my frd wedding n i going to be the mc, den following wkend going to macau den another wkend is colleague wedding again den mthend closing again @ work .. so pack .. so busy so tiring .. when is my scheduler coming to a pause for breather??

juz gave u a short updates bah .. hehe..

sat: cousin gathering -> tok alot of craps and being " harassed" by the mj king coz i didnt turn up for her baby daug full month celebration .. but i got sent rep go leh ..ie my hubby.. this is the best factor abt marriage .. when u r so tied up, u still got a "somebody" to help u attend such functions.. haha my shadow .. or i am his shadow?..

sun: mum bdae ... early morning go be garang guni den lunch hurrily bath & pack my bro laptop den go fetch my parents go sis hse. .den help sis prepare. .den eat den play chinese chess. .. hahaa gave my hubby a bit sweat .. he din knew my strategy is so good even though i nver play b4 .. coz i am born cunning .. hahaa den evening send my parents hm den setup the laptop for my mum den brought the spoilt pc hm @ toh guan

mon till today, work n work n work n complain n complain n more complains .. rushing every1, every1 rushing.. which is which??? i oso confuse le ...

so long till this wkend den blog again .. if i manage to keep my eyes open .. but 1 good ting to annouce is .. my "fasting" coming to an end soooooooooooooooooooooon!

so looking fwd to end my fasting..

Compare, 2 Different Worlds

actually this thought has been drifting in my mind for years and i still dont have an ans to the strange but unique and happy relationship that i am sharing with that someone out there. ..how on earth can 2 very different personalities pple become the best friends for donkey yrs?! .. hehe i have a very special friend in my heart. ocassionally forget her, ocassionally remember her, ocassionally so mad at her for her choices but ocassionally still run to her whenever i am feeling down.

she was my sec sch schmate, my primary sch schmate, we shared the same ECA in sec sch, her core was a librarian, my core was netball, but our sub ECA are prefects .. though later i end up in jc while she still doing her N O levels, we still kept in touch during the jc yrs when my other 1 hasnt appear in my life.

conincidently her auntie is my auntie frd coz my frd sis n cousin enrolled in the same primary sch as my cousins so my cousins and her sis n cousins knew each other as well ..wow small small world and during our sch holidays, her sis, auntie n herself would help my uncle in his business in helping him do packing etc ... n earn some pocket $$ .. den when i go to uni, she started poly n working ..

we lost touch for dont know how long .. den we even haf some miscommunications when my other one appeared in my life coz i felt i was neglecting her .. or rather i tot she is neglecting me .. or .. aiya dont know wat happen .. i only vaguely remember i cried or get upset bcoz i couldnt handle a friendship n relationship at the same time .. then later the usual stuff happen .. i ditched my friendship for relationship, we lost touch until i changed my job from suntec to west coast ..

den this frd oso working around west coast den we met n talk again during lunch and get back together again until now. now i dont work at west coast but we occasionally met up for mj sessions .. ya i knew i am uqiting mj .. den why start it again? .. coz i dont know wat else can i do if i dun mj .. haha and of coz thank god didnt forget her ... fate gave her a bf .. n tings are looking good for her .. getting married soon coz she finally got her deg so can start saving up.

why i would say we are very different is because i like to go out into the sun while her hobbies are very indoor type .. like cooking la, shopping la, eat birdnest la .. me .. i prefer to eat macdonalds, kfc, go sentosa, get myself tan, learn new sports.. even go holidays i oso go on impulse .. while she plan n plan for the holidays ..

to me, she's always the more rational person whil i am the impulsive type who just do wat i like, how i feel, i go by my heart, she go by her brain.. very different hoh .. if u bully me, i will fight back n bite u back double or triple, if u bully her, then she will juz curse n swear behind u den tats it .. den carry on with her life .. and best is .. even in appearance we are so different ..

she looks great n beautiful with short or long hairs .. i can only keep my hairs long to prevent pple from mistaking me as tomboy or lesbian .. she's skinny and all dresses fit her while i lost weight by 1% and gain by 100% .. hahaa .. so i am fat, she is thin. but i tink we have 2 tings in common - a) shopping, b) negative thinkings ... tats all .. haha

i dont love to cook n i cant cook .. she can cook n she cooks very well esp those very difficult tings like crab la .. fish with head la .. i can only manage those fish w/o head n tail type .. u know which type rite ..although i tried to pick up cooking when during my initial mths of marriage, i gave it up coz the before cook n after cooking preparation is too much for me to bear .. sian man .. rather eat out ..

i often try to find a similarity btwn 2 of us but i nver manage to find it. and i am often against her ideas and suggestions .. but i always run back to her when i need suggestions and ideas .. and when feeling moody esp after the mj queen got preg and i still cant ..and she still totally understand how i feel.

i dont know how will our friendship become yrs down the road when we start our own family, will we be as close as ever or we will drift apart, but just wan to say this ..

you r the best gal .. too bad i am not a les .. wahahaaa

Gone with the wind - Byebye!

pple leave for the greener grass, this is wat i always tink when i knew there is somebody who resign in my job. but then is it really the greener grass that drove pple away or its the "perceived" greener grass thats why they left or its becoz of other reasons like not happie with existing colleagues or other work related reason? well, i left 2 jobs previously becoz (1st job) unhappie with colleagues - only 7 pple in the small tiny company oso wan to play office politics with each other.. why?!!, (2nd job) unhappie abt china boss being biased and ex-superior - my efforts were not recognised but dimished and stepped on but i loved the job alot but i still left. (3rd job) .. under wat circumstances will i leave here? i will let u know when the time comes, but not for now.

ok my team mate left yesterday, last day. 515pm dropped an email to the whole group and tell us today is the last day, pls take care .. i wanted to tell her .. yes we will take very good care with u not ard to mess tings up. i cant say she is a trouble maker but she is not a peace lover as well .. a gossip monger .. an extremist helpful gal for all the wrong reasons. i cant hate her coz this is her personality but she also refused to be guided, so i nver get along with her even though yesterday was her last day, my attitude stays the same.

I am who i am. i wont be ur friend just becoz today is ur last day. To me, if i can smile at u .. then i have no hate-ship towards u. but if i walk pass u n look elsewhere .. u know where u shld be placed on my "shelf". so last day, leave for the better or for the worse? nobody knows and she wont say so i dont bother to ask and know.

i m just so frank, so i have very little friends. really very little friends .. but quantity does not impact me becoz i go for sincerity. tats me. happy or sad, see it in my face and tone. this is still me ..

harlow SU BAOFANG!

Progress of my Dieting

no big progress is all i can say, still stuck at 61kg even though i have cut down on lunchs and breakfast, guess the remaining fats on my body need to be shed during excercises and workouts. But i havent been hitting the squash court since a week ago .. the wkend tat juz past, i was crouching at my parents hse and hitting the shelves off NTUC ... buying groceries for my mum's hse and playing mj with my bro/sis-in-law. i tink i shld be glad that i did not gain any significant weight during the wkend tat juz past bcoz i ate 3 meals, 2 small 1 big .. oops .. felt so sinful on monday i confided in my peers @work. reallie leh ..wkend at home so often and still meeting in-laws for breakfast n they kept asking us to go up for meals, how to avoid the meals .. i dun eat, my significant one still got to eat lei .. so i ate 2-3mouthful. haha

today have a bad time getting off my cosy bed and to perk myself up, i decided to skip my daily lunch milk for a macdonald sausage muffin which i already ate half in the morning before coming to work. the other half for today lunch :) a change from the usual milk. been feeding myself with 1 packet of low fat milk for the past 5 working days last week. a switch today can make me more motivated tomorrow :p

den yest nite went for a jog around my hse field .. ran 3rounds den call it quits coz my whole body n legs are itching.. i hate jogging bcoz i itch every time i jog. the last i stop itching was i ran with my bro yrs ago .. when i was in jc den i stop doing tat when i went to uni coz he moved out to live on his own. so now is my significant one to motivate me liao .. can see he trying his best to motivate me .. and i always nver fail to bully him. How good it is to fall in love and excercise at the same time... kekekekeeee hahaaaa

hmm so tonite i am going for my facial, then dinner with my significant one, then another 3rounds of jogging? depends lo .. if i ate dinner at 8pm, how to jog at 9pm? have to wait till 2hrs later which is 10pm den i will hit the sack at 11pm-12am? no way la ..tml how to get off my bed??!!! nvm .. let tings fall naturally bah.

recently i am trying to cultivate myself to be less of a control freak. i felt that i am controlling too much tings and being a pest to others. so i hope i can be less controlling and be happier in return. i do not feel happie when i am in control so i cam trying to control less or dun control at all and be happier. all bcoz of a recent incident at work, thats why i am trying to change my way of life and handling. its unhapi event so i dun intend to pen it down for future reconciliations.

watever i am penciling it down here, i want to be able to re-read it yrs or mths or days down the road and be happie and remember them, so no unhappie posting here ...

mooncake festival coming in 2 weeks time, was tinking if i shld hold a family gathering @ toh guan hse and ask my family members and my significant one's family to join. however i held 1 during mummy's day tis yr but his family dun wan to come down, so end up he celebrated with my mum n my family. i am so afraid his family tis time round dun wan to join again.. i often wonder why are they so inferior? why dont they wan to join me n my family and have fun? senior citizens can still sit together and talk and have fun mah, why muz die die be only ur family or my family can be present? .. totally dun understand .. wats the rationale behind? in short - "wats ur problem". haiz .. fan .. fan fan .. yrs down the road, if i have a child and my child create his/her own family nucleus, i will wan to join them, but who knows, maybe my child wont wan me to join .. haha ya lo .. i have been toking abt "yrs down the road" in this posting so often .. am i aging... alamak .. dun wan .................... i am forever young, 18yrs old!

new add on to the new work desk!!

41days and still so fat!!!

i talked about losing weight back in April when i knew i was going to be my frd's wedding MC ... and then so many mths down the road, i am still so fat ... but the brighter side is i am not gaining weight but i am not losing it either .. then how to squeeze into pretty nice dresses??

so sianz. no determination, not enough workouts, so lazy and undiscipline. watever la, all talk no use. boring.. today i am skipping my lunch and intend to skip dinner as well, this is super mal-nutrition but hack care already .. i am slim down and i am going for jogs below my flat tonite and 100 situps .. haha ok all talk no work makes jack a dumb boy. . ya i know .. haha but juz let me cont to talk or how do i pass this lonely lunch hour leh?

today saw jetstar has this very attractive air tix promo, to travel by 30Nov. Morning was juz discussing with HIM where shld we go to celebrate our 2nd anniversary. Last yr we went genting, then this yr? going to get cheaper rite .. coz we plan to go JP in early Jan next yr, but go early Jan weather so cold, buy wat clothes?! should go around hmm ..may? sunny weather, same as singapore then the clothings more applicable. but my frd who went n came back said they spent a lot on food .. and very little on clothes..will i oso be like tat? dont know la .. from now till next yr may alot of tings can happen and deter our plans but plans will always be plans .. subject to changes are call plans.

nvm lo, cont to plan lo ..i am sneezing again, office air is quite lousy even though my work space is more or less settle, hope the whole air system gets better coming mid-sep where the reno will be completed. . hopefully lo ..

so do i sound negative today?

New Hairdo to welcome a new work desk

hey hey, check out my new hair do .. hehe went to cut a lot of layers off my long shapeless hair .. so now got more volume and my head looked biggeR!



and here's my new work desk, very big and spacious, but i took from the side so maybe not so obvious. But its really very empty for now la .. cant guarantee 3 days down the road, wat will happen .. hehe

den u ask me why so free to blog? aiya bcoz my MIL cooked alot yest so packed some food home lo, another reason is to save $$, why save? coz my frd wedding coming up in early oct, nid to buy new dress and make up and style hairs, all nid $$. But i am not sure how much i can actually save, so just save a bit is a bit lo .. hehe

recently feeling abit moody and some mood swings, so when i reach hm, i dont feel like doing anyting else except zzz .. i just wan to lie on my bed and tink of none .. and then go to sleep until next morning my hubby woke me up at 7am .. yes i am a self-declared pig, i admit .... putting myself in my hubby's shoes, i dont know why he can tink so thousand and millions of tings to do and making himself so tiring every day when he reaches home .. weirdy ..by being busy then show they are useful? really dont wan to know the real reason oso .. in case he said .. " i am so busy bcoz my wife very lazy, every nite go hm only sleep .."

then how? ... dont know la .. just dont disturb me ..

What have you been doing??

so long didnt blog liao .. yest came across my sis in law's blog den realised that its time i start blogging again, but i started questioning myself .. wat should i blog about? blog abt my daily activities or blog about my inner feelings? if i blog abt my inner feelings then every1 will know how i feel but if i blog abt general tings, i felt very meaningless and empty inside .. gosh .. so hateful - to blog or not to blog.

anyway lets generalize for this time round.

hmm 8aug-10aug i jointly opened a chalet @ eAst coast Island Resort with my father in law, hubby, bro & sis in law. Was a bit disappointed during planning stage bcoz i wanted my frds to pay me for the bbq food but my FIL was against it so much he told my hubby n my MIL and god knows who else .. sianz ... k lo .. swallow my pride, take back my words, told all my frds not to pay me for bbq food .. heng end up i did not paid a lot for the chalet n food.. else i will curse n swear to my teddy bear!

on Day1 my Microsoft colleagues were so nice, they all took PM half day leaves except lynn to come to my chalet for bbq and cycling!!! wow .. wat more can i ask for .. so nice colleagues ever since i started my working life.

**** they are my bestest friends for-NOW ****

even though i am "displeased" at all times with them ... hahaa .. den we played some games .. haha and poor alice was fined with 3 papayas during the multiple2,3,4,5 .. den we played mystery number and i was forced to down 2 small cups of Baileys .. yucks!! .. pure baileys are so awful .. but lance more ke lian .. he downed 1 cup of pure Rose syrup .. hahaa den its time for them to sayonara .. coz they going to watch mummy .. my nite ends with 2 mj sessions tat lasted till 545am next day.

Day2 starts with a big knock on the door at 10am!!! sicko .. which idiot come so early to the chalet .. harlow .. check in time for them should be 3pm mah .. hahaa not meh .. so who else.. my hubby's relatives lo .. 1 very helpful n nice auntie, 1 pair of very "jia-gao-bu" (eat enough) uncle n his wife and my hubby ah ma .. sickening couple .. spoilt my bbq .. they grab and ate all my bbq food, end up my hubby, myself, MIL, BIL din eat !!!!!!!!! how sickening and unhapi i was but i cant say anything coz he is not my direct relatives, i am still an outsider, so such tings better left unsaid from my mouth ..den nite time.. i dozed off @12am .. n my hubby's frds came .. wat a bad timing .. oh ya and who came on Day2? Regile, Rosie, Alice Soo and the MJ king &Queen! .. so hapie to c them all, my hubby esp hapi to c the MJ king & queen .. haha

and day 3 ends with 930am .. pack finish, go eat mc bfast n go hm zzzzz ..

so fun chalet but tings can be better w/o the elderlys ...

Craze over you

I have watched The Legend 4x, twice over DVD and twice over MediaCorp Channel U on Sat & Sun and i juz cant stop watching. The magical items, the love stories and so many wat-ifs this and that.. so romantic and touching story after I have a date with Vampires Series 1. Even more crazy over this drama series than others ...

i tried to decipher why am i so crazy over this drama .. and the following are the conclusion:

* i love the drama because a re-born of the characters did not allow the initial couple (TanDe & XiuZhiNi) to be together again but let another female character became the king's lover (Qihe).
** i love the drama becoz of bae yong joon.
*** i love the drama becoz of the kind-hearted ness of the King, who not kills but rules with heart.
**** i love the drama becoz of the magical scenes and storyline.
***** i love the drama becoz of the beautiful looking characters.
****** i love the drama becoz of the sad endings where the king sacrifices himself.

Managed to find some links via Blogger.com to share with you and some wiki explanations on the Great of Goguryeo...

http://dearyongjoon.blogspot.com/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gwanggaeto_the_Great_of_Goguryeo

Bae rocks!

Tupperware Big Discount

Check out Tupperware website and let me know if you are interested in any pdt by quoting me the number code! my personal email is subaofang@gmail.com

juz fyi, i am currently using the following tupperware pdts and find them very user-friendly!

1. tupperware 8.7L water tumbler
2. kungfu panda limited edition containers
3. tupperware 2L water containers (grey color)
4. tupperware micro-wave-able divider lunch box!

oh and i oso bought a tupperware gift set for my hubby frd during their hse warming .. hehe

check this out man .. and personal email me for more info too!

MC 2 days, 1 Day off in lieu

haha sad to say very unsuccessfully trying to get fit and then feeding myself wif my food after excercise. . how to lose weight like tat?

went to c Dr Feredick Goh on Wed for my long lasting cough n he gave me 2 days MC to stay at home and i already applied 1day off in lieu on friday, so i got to rest for 5days in row .. so how have i been spending them?

Wed: c doc, then went for pedicure @ IMM, then back to farrer rd for dinner den fetch mum to my hse to sleep so tml morning we can go cpf board together to sort out some stuffs.

Thu: went bank to check out current deposit interests and met colleagues for lunch coz its my nu er sue lin bdae lunch .. then evening time went to Bt Batok to have a 6laps swim .. wow .. felt so fit after tat but strained my arm muscles coz din warm up properly..den met this very good guy who let me in coz i forget to bring $$ but later when yilong came to fetch me, i return the $$ to him. hehe so nice guy, or i will have walked in vain.

Fri: do hsework lo .. haha felt so bad mum came over to help me with the washing clothes so today decided to wash the remaining clothes with the washing machine. nite time meeting yilong & his colleagues go havelock tian xia di yi shua for steamboat buffet @ $15 per pax .. wow .. eat again..

Sat: intend to go sentosa but saw on tv tat the ch8 artists are going tml as well to Palawan beach then i dun felt like going anymore leh .. haha coz will be so crowded . .then i dun know if siloso beach renovation is completed or nt .. so how? .. no plans but i am determine to make plans by tonite so that tml will have a fun day..

Sun: rest lo ... n going back to Dr Goh for free review of my cough .. got to work on Monday liao so muz caught my last afternoon nap ..haha

oh ya when i went to c dr goh, he recommended me n yilong to go back to c him for advice on how to get more fertile and increase productivity for my "factory" but i told him i may still not be mentally prepared yet to have a baby. seriously, after seeing my mj kaki get preg, the urge for me to get preg is decreasing with each passing day. why? bcoz i nid to give up my fav processed food like hotdog, luncheon meats, tibits, etc and change to eat more healthier food, my looks may oso change, then nid to spend more $$ on maternity clothes, argh .. everyting in my mind that cross by juz does not tell me the benefits of being preg n having a baby now.

i am now at the peak of my life and i really dont feel like having a baby to bore me down. but i know yilong is very eager to have a baby becoz he even went to seek consultation with the mj kaki's hubby .. sianz .. its a bad struggle.

after mym baby come out, who will look after the baby? me? not possible, i will not wan to sacrifice my worklife for the baby, if give my mother in law, den she is alaways so sickly, visiting the doc now and then, how to look after it? moveover, i do not have so many days leaves to take whenever she go for her mthly / forthnitely checkups .. as for my parents .. dont even nid to mention. Mon/wed/fri mum go for diaysis, dad almost everyday go out with frds and also not in good health laterly.. haiz ..

my mum advice me to talk 1 step at a time, but being a pessimistic person and someone who likes planning for the future rather than leave 1 step at the time, how can i not worry for the future? and my hubby, he is really take 1 step at the time .. haiz .. dont tell me wat to do .. i already know wat i wan to do, but i do not have the support of my family members, feeling so isolated now and esp when the topic of baby comes to my mind .. haiz...

太王四神记 - 主题曲

《太王四神记》主题曲-翻译歌词：

象枯萎的草一样
在悲伤凝聚的岁月里
辗转反侧的时候
内心深处还在叹息
如果能够聚集千年的眼泪
是否可以代替这样的心情彩霞散去的天尽头
今天依旧在徘徊
在清晨的光芒中

从梦中醒来的时候昨日那虚无缥缈的梦幻正消失在传说中
如果能够聚集千年的愿望
是否可以代替这样的心情在晨曦消失的田野尽头
今天依旧在徘徊
在低矮的风下 疲惫不堪
独自徘徊的时候下了好半天的雨
好似在劝慰世上所有的委屈
如果能够聚集千年的爱情
是否可以代替这样的心情月光入睡的天尽头
今天依旧在徘徊..

PC Show 2008

went to pc show yest after my facial. shopped from 1pm+ till 5pm+ with my colleague. bought a Shinco GM-4300 wide screen GPS and 1 2GB Zen Stone creative mp3 player (meant) to encourage me to stay excercising today.. but wasnt successful. felt like jogging this morning when i woke up ard 7am+ but then went back to bed till 9am+ .. haha when woke up, played with my new mp3 player till 11am .. den decided to gave up coz i going to mit my ex-colleague cum good friend michelle @ panjang @12pm ..den going to LL hse to discuss jeff wedding n oso a mj session.. hehe tot i said give up mj? so now y still mj? coz this is mj with zero cash .. zero cash mj .. y not .. hahaa

told my colleague tat i have no intention to leave ms now bcoz ms gives us good dinner and fed me till i gained 5kg! .. haha .. ya lo .. current job is still the best job after teckwah, so why leave when i dun feel the grass is greener outside... but who knows wat other arrangements are going to be made. . bo liao arrangement but this is work, nth i can do .. live with it lo .. sighZ .. my fav kuo tuo chan now .. hehe

going out lo .. hehe

Songs of my past and present

Yuki Yaki @ Marina Square, 6 June 2008 (FRIDAY)

Is this the 1st and last time we are going to dine during office hours? hopefully not ..this is the good thing abt the new job arrangement, we can all go on leave together!

Former EA team + 1 elect member

me & Alice
Char & Sue Lin & Meeee
Lance, Alice & Lynn

V-Day 2008

Miss my very long and ah lian hair. Went to cut my fringe so short, it loked so awful now .. hope my fringe quickly grow long back fast ... hehe

Bali Trip on 11 - 14 April 2008

Windows Live Spaces

Latest Updates

Simple & Quick updates of miself:

Age: 20+

Status: Married and not complicated

Staying: Singapore, Toh Guan Rd
Family members: 12 (own), 5 (inlaws)

Job: Microsoft (biggest software giant)

Occupation: deg holder data entry clerk and entertainment puppet

Salary per mth: undisclosed

Drive: kia rio

Hubby: Fat but cute

Hobbies: squash, shopping coz now GSS

Fav drama of the mth: neh, c the pic lo..

Fav language: *stupid*

Fav person: my teddy bear

Fav brand: Brands Chicken Essence

Emoticon smile: none, coz i am suppose to be fierce and fearful by all :p

k la, tats all for the above, can we get started on my life journey now?

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Life at work now is so routine, no more challenges because i changed reporting boss. my fearful boss had moved on to take on another role even though we are still under the same hiring manager. now i am reporting to a very bo chap boss, so bo chap and always email fei hua to us .. labbish!

life @ home si so relaxing .. go home, eat, sleep, wkend do some simple clothes washing, then eat, sleep again.

social @ life? none... very not enthu abt meeting frds liao .. juz dun feel like going out since i got such a cosy home now .. why bother to go out? ask my frds come my hse rot with me oso lo .. but tink my hse nids more cosy deco .. working on it now .. but soon .. will be very colorful coming oct ... i'm trying to lose weight now so tat i will look slim coming oct to b my sec sch kaki's wedding dinner mc .. hehe can i achieve it? i bet i will .. haha muz jia you n work hard..

New Blog after 2006

Harlow all,

its not tat i have forgotten u, but i had found a supposingly better blog elsewhere, then realised tat it wasnt as good as here! .. so here i am .. back to where i started after going 1 big circle..

hehee ..

keep posted!