Progress of my Dieting

no big progress is all i can say, still stuck at 61kg even though i have cut down on lunchs and breakfast, guess the remaining fats on my body need to be shed during excercises and workouts. But i havent been hitting the squash court since a week ago .. the wkend tat juz past, i was crouching at my parents hse and hitting the shelves off NTUC ... buying groceries for my mum's hse and playing mj with my bro/sis-in-law. i tink i shld be glad that i did not gain any significant weight during the wkend tat juz past bcoz i ate 3 meals, 2 small 1 big .. oops .. felt so sinful on monday i confided in my peers @work. reallie leh ..wkend at home so often and still meeting in-laws for breakfast n they kept asking us to go up for meals, how to avoid the meals .. i dun eat, my significant one still got to eat lei .. so i ate 2-3mouthful. haha

today have a bad time getting off my cosy bed and to perk myself up, i decided to skip my daily lunch milk for a macdonald sausage muffin which i already ate half in the morning before coming to work. the other half for today lunch :) a change from the usual milk. been feeding myself with 1 packet of low fat milk for the past 5 working days last week. a switch today can make me more motivated tomorrow :p

den yest nite went for a jog around my hse field .. ran 3rounds den call it quits coz my whole body n legs are itching.. i hate jogging bcoz i itch every time i jog. the last i stop itching was i ran with my bro yrs ago .. when i was in jc den i stop doing tat when i went to uni coz he moved out to live on his own. so now is my significant one to motivate me liao .. can see he trying his best to motivate me .. and i always nver fail to bully him. How good it is to fall in love and excercise at the same time... kekekekeeee hahaaaa

hmm so tonite i am going for my facial, then dinner with my significant one, then another 3rounds of jogging? depends lo .. if i ate dinner at 8pm, how to jog at 9pm? have to wait till 2hrs later which is 10pm den i will hit the sack at 11pm-12am? no way la ..tml how to get off my bed??!!! nvm .. let tings fall naturally bah.

recently i am trying to cultivate myself to be less of a control freak. i felt that i am controlling too much tings and being a pest to others. so i hope i can be less controlling and be happier in return. i do not feel happie when i am in control so i cam trying to control less or dun control at all and be happier. all bcoz of a recent incident at work, thats why i am trying to change my way of life and handling. its unhapi event so i dun intend to pen it down for future reconciliations.

watever i am penciling it down here, i want to be able to re-read it yrs or mths or days down the road and be happie and remember them, so no unhappie posting here ...

mooncake festival coming in 2 weeks time, was tinking if i shld hold a family gathering @ toh guan hse and ask my family members and my significant one's family to join. however i held 1 during mummy's day tis yr but his family dun wan to come down, so end up he celebrated with my mum n my family. i am so afraid his family tis time round dun wan to join again.. i often wonder why are they so inferior? why dont they wan to join me n my family and have fun? senior citizens can still sit together and talk and have fun mah, why muz die die be only ur family or my family can be present? .. totally dun understand .. wats the rationale behind? in short - "wats ur problem". haiz .. fan .. fan fan .. yrs down the road, if i have a child and my child create his/her own family nucleus, i will wan to join them, but who knows, maybe my child wont wan me to join .. haha ya lo .. i have been toking abt "yrs down the road" in this posting so often .. am i aging... alamak .. dun wan .................... i am forever young, 18yrs old!